My paintballing experience | CharlotteBehappy

So recently I went paintballing for the first time! 
We went to a place called Mayhem Paintballing which I believe is in Theydon Bois That is their facebook page if you want to check it out

We took the tube, central line, to Theydon Bois and from there we took a bus to the actual site.  As I go to an all girls school, seriously, the girls went crazy over the boys (especially one called Alex - I think they got pictures with him, and autographs, and he gave them a fake number which they then called). 

We then got kitted up in what seemed like a bullet proof vest, a military onsie type thing and then a weird little belt. We also got some rather fetching goggles which makes your voice sound weird. We got out guns and we went on the first course. We just had to shoot as many people on the other team as possible. Basically. I was shot in the head, right in my parting (with a very greasy paint which actually made my hair v soft once I washed it), and now I have a massive bump on my head. I was also the FIRST one out. I'm not going to lie, it hurt like fuck to get hit, especially on a non-protected area of my body but it started to go down almost immediately. Now it only hurts when I touch it. Then we played on the same field and someone ON MY OWN TEAM shot me in the arm, and now I have a lovely bruise. It was really hot and my first reaction was that I did NOT like paintballing.

That field looked like this

However we then went onto a different field, with different opponents and I really enjoyed it! It was like capture the flag, and two friends and I, hid on the outside silently waiting for an enemy to come round the side. We did really well! We didn't get shot, and we got to shoot my science teacher (woo!). We worked really well as a team and we won!
We then tried the same technique when we did that match again and I was shot in the back (put apparently it didn't burst!), but it was really fun anyway.

The final field was really fun! I ran out of ammo sadly, but again it was fun shooting everyone. Also the 'heartthrob' Alex was trying to help our team, and my friend was quite pleased that he held her hand as he ran with her to some hay in front (rolls eyes). 

So it was a very fun day, and if you stop worrying about getting shot it's really enjoyable. I'd definitely do it again but maybe not for a while. I can tick this off my bucket list and let's see... Laser tag next!?

Song lyrics | CharlotteBehappy

So I basically have not been motivated to do this but yay day 10 is finally here

Here are some songs I wrote when I was in Primary school and I hope these are funny or interesting to read (cringe at me)

The album was called 'The best of 'the best'' and these are the songs:

1. bigger Feelings
2. How
3. Start a fresh
4. What's....? - Single
5. blossem
6. or else
7. I'm dying
8. hanging there - single
9. Not understandable
10. Only when (you hold me) - Single
11. What do you want
12. fallen warrior - single
13. closed eyes - single
14. still asleep
15. get up everybody

I'm going to keep the grammar exactly the same as it was when I wrote this and if it's not understandable I'm going to write what it would mean in normal English in brackets. Also, I seemed very proud of the song 'I'm dying' which is a song I orginally wrote for the Tragic Lemons but obviously I wanted to use this for my solo career. I'm not going to be including it in this post as it's in my last post.

Bigger Feeling.

When I was younger

you could break my heart like that (click)
but now
it's much different
it takes alot more (crash)
even a house fallin'
just like that
won't break my heart
that easily

chorus: 'cause I got bigger feeling

I can still here you pleading
cause I got bigger feelins
I can still hear you screeching scratching
but I've got big-big-bigger badder feelings

you won't find me pleading 'cause of

my bigger feelings
life has made a turn since I got it, that hit
that turned everything around all
hearts and my crown so I'm not to depressed
and you know why (x3)

Chorus x2

Hey boy come and get me! Come get me x4



I would have thought

that you would be thebibi last one on my mind
It's were it came
out just like that of mouth my big big mouth
bit: but you don't want me?
but you don't need me?
but what are you doing still standing here

How it happened
how it kept on going
how it kept on going to the very top
then boom x2 (boom boom boom)

Every love I've had

just broke away
but it just shows 
what happens when you vavy (idk what that's supposed to mean) x2



I can't believe it I really can't believe it x3

Chorus x2

Start afresh

Your life

My life
a big gagantic (gigantic) mess
but is it
that hard
to start afresh
can you, really do that
I hear you ask

Chorus: Start afresh

change you life
go as far as you need go
even Change your name,
the colour of your hair,
Move to another world
just start afresh

The amount of fights we've been through

The mates, the dates the mad mistakes (I totally stole this from that mates dates book)
What makes you crazy
what make you at night stay awake
C'mon just think in your head


start afresh, oohh oohh (x6)

Chorus (x2)


What dot dot dot

You're like a 60's egyptions

It's like you come from reception
you walk down the streets purple tights, your hair is even
a shade of white
bit: but what is that they say me? that makes me embarresed and go a shade of

Chorus: They say

what dot dot dot
they never finish their sentence
don't know what to say
In the same way your crazy clothes that go whooh whooh (as in woah)

you seem to look like something

that came from the dustbin
you have a green shirt and your trousers are crumpled

But what do you look like?

What is wrong with your head?
Chorus x2
What dot dot dot What dot dot dot
What dot dot dot What dot dot dot
(into fade)

Blossem (as in Blossom)

Whooh wwhhoohh oh oh oh oh yeah

It took to long For me to carry on
break my heart once more and make me sore (lol)
I've been dumped once when I was young
Oh you'll regret it boy

Chorus: so Blossem Blossem Blossem boy

come to your senses senses senses boy
don't you even think about it my my
just blossem

You get the catch the trick trap

its so hard to you you you'll know what to o
you knew how to break it you knew how to fake it (no)
I hate it when i here you say oi!

Chorus x2

how do I make you understand
you just look so plain and bland
you won't take controool
you think your playing a rrooollleee

Blossem pu pu Blossem pu Blossem pu pu 

blossem pu blossem pu pu Blossem pu

Or else

I used to do whatever you said

Even if your face were'nt bright red
I was to scared of you
To say when I thought we were through
We used to have such fun times
but now your such a sour lime
you used to say

Chorus: or else

but that book on the shelf (this is in the tune of 'our house')
or else
get rid of all your health (originally I'd written 'don't act like an elf' and then crossed it out)
or else
don't be your self
or else

I was so easy then

you lot were nice, kind men
now you do what I say
you know it's not a game
Thats how it should always be
Wait a will (while) ad you'll see


Do this Do that or else (x4)

Chorus x2

I'm dying

Hanging there - single

You left me so sudden

but you were like thunder
what did I do? What did I say
you know I wasn't playing a 
stupid game

Chorus: You left me hanging there
with the stupid Mayor
to help me out of here
wait he's not very near
oh you left me hanging there
I don't really care (for your love)

I don't cry every night

I stay strong with all my might
I'm feel happy now stronge now
But what is it that makes me fall?


I do what I do I do what I please

I don't care how much you plead
You can't join with me! x3

Chorus x2

Isn't understandable

There is something on this planet

that makes us wanna ' scream
we wanna be free
with no rules we'll get better at it
bit: try we'll try to hit the top
but if one of us stumbles we are sure to FLOB (flop)

Chorus: This just isn't understandable

Its just isn't clear
Out minds are full of fog that's comin out our ears
A bit of lullabye you would
of thought would ease our minds
but it Stops imagination + skips ahead of time

Peace should be easy

And it should be easy to find
the generous and caring ones
The ones called the loving kind



Hope is excellence

Excellence is all ways here
try and try and you'll get near


It's only when you hold me - Single

There is a feeling

no one can describe
There is a heart bear
that kicks in all the vibes
bit: It take my breath away
likes it ment to last forever but

Chorus: Its Only when you hold me
It's only when I feel your touch
It's only when you hold me
It's then my feelings errupt
Can you feel it you should feel it now
hold on only when hold on

Its like a satisfaction

It makes me wanna scream and shout
the hatred goes away forever
the happiness alout (aloud)



Its just to easy to let go

Its easy to let your feelings show
oh oh oh oh oh oh

What do you want?

What do you people keep looking at

Theres nothing here to see
Why do you people make me feel self consious
I wanna be free! o
Mind your own buisness
havene't you got other things to do
your eyes are on me
stuck with super glue


What do you want?
What do you need from me?
Can you stop being rude for 
a second of your life
Can you close your eyes
and move on by

Can't you start a new topic of
It's like you people are coming
from an invasion
of staring and glaring
can't you take your eyes of 

Fallen warrior - Single

She won't put herself outa line, She's all kept up inside, She like a younger version of me, that's what makes me scream why do you stare at her likes she sweet candy can't you see she needs to be set fre bit: (I am a looser more loveable freer version of her so why dont you see...) Chorus (She is daddys little girl, so why is it her your after?, she got the whole world on her credit card, so why is it her who makes your heart beat faster she won't even let her hair and let go she won't put a toe outa line but you love her so I feel like a fallen warrior I've fallen to please you you make me a fallen warrior) Why don't you help me be like her, don't you see what we could be she doesn't even like you that much, do you like her because she isn't falling for you with a love rush do you want me to hate you? Should we just be friends? bit chorus don't you see what your missing? don't make me please, cause i'm already hissing she's not right for you and if you dare change because of her come back to me, I'll show you what you have to do to become mind And I know you've make up your mind bit chorus she she she her her her (repeat) bit

A very 'you belong with me'-esque song. COPYRIGHTED, DON'T TAKE IT TAYLOR SWIFT

Closed eyes - Single

We embrace

we hold
my heart is racing
our story untold
bit: this fantasy
gone when I open my eyes

Chorus: I've got closed eyes
to see our love
yeah its closed eyes
to feel the warm fuzze
when I close my eyes
it's comfating (comforting)

A dream world never lasts

but it can form in your mind
It can make your heart rate faster
to show that your mine
bit chorus
Closed eyes
Imagination greets closed eyes
bit chorus

Still asleep

You hurt me

you harmed
and now your gonna pay for that
I hate you
I ignore you
I'm gonna let our friendship fall flat

Chorus: I'm still asleep

Thoughs (those) nightmares haunting me
we were friends
but you and I have come to an end
my reality into bad dreams
I'm still asleep

It still hurts
thought you try to ease me
you still hurt me
even if you let me free
I still hate you
What you did was wrong
I'll ignore you
you think hatred makes you strong


(repeat with background)

Get up everybody - Single

Theres a party cooking

on a club street
but its real lame
'till it 'scovers me
bit: lets get the old grannys
out of there chairs
lets crank up the tunes
and let them lead the atmostphere

Chorus: get up everybody

move your body
you see the part
starts when I'm around
so shake your body
take your hips to town

They wanna change there style

to hot to trot (obvs from st trinians)
yeah thats the really girly dance
yeah I think not

If we all get up we'll be ahed

of our game we'll show everybody this party time
bit chorus

Songs I wrote when I was 8 | CharlotteBehappy

Me, and my sister and her friend were in a girl group called 'the tragic lemons' and I have a book full of some amazing songs we wrote. I thought I'd share them with you today.

The Tragic Lemons

We're so bitter we're not sour anymore

All our bones ache (ache) 
We feel so sore (sore)
Boys are dumb (dumb)
Boys ain't cool (cool)
Boys are smelly (smelly)
Girls should rule....

We're the tragic lemon
You'd be surprised
Tragic lemons
We are really wise
So leave us alone we're the tragic lemons

Ooh boys used to rule our world 

But now they make us hurl
We've grown up since then
It's time to get revenge
No more playground games
I'm just taking it cool
No more 'baby' or 'honey'
It's good to rule....


We're the tragic, tragic, tragic lemons x3


Foxtrot (next to the title it says 'best song')

I gotta get it on, get it on downtown

I gotta get it on, get it on right now
I don't need you anymore
I don't need you to get sore
I know that it can't be easy, easy


If you want to be sassy (sassy)
If you wanna be cool (cool)
Then you better get a partner (partner)
And get your feet on the dancefloor (dancefloor)
and foxtrot!

Everybody loves, everybody needs, everybody wants... YOU! (repeat)

I don't need you anymore
I don't need you to get sore
I know that it can't be easy

Chorus x2


Freaky Cheaky Monkeys (I didn't write this one actually)

I gotta get up get up for the first day, first day of the week

banana banana banana banana banana banana
we're the freaky cheaky monkeys
and we're coming to town today
We're the freaky cheaky monkeys and we're coming to town today
We're the freaky cheaky monkeys and we're coming to town today
banana banana banana banana
The freaky cheaky monkeys

What are friends for?


What are friends for? What are friends for?
We don't need boys anymore
We're friends forever, we're friends forever
we won't break up cause we're friends forever

When my mates left me I felt real sad

But then I relaised I was being real bad
So I found out I really needed them
And that I could of been nicer to them
So need you back and they came back


When my gang kicked me out

all I did was shout
I knew it was bad how I acted
and it had gone worse how I reacted
but they came back
and no I'm not sad


When you're in your ups and downs with your friends

It will be alright in the end
so figure out all your problems
and go have a good time


I'm dying

Why has the world gone cold? 

Why do I feel so old?
Let me out of this dark place
Let me out of this mean chase
Why has the world gone numb?
Or is it just me being dumb?


I'm dying
So sad and lonely
I'm crying
So skinny and boney
What did I do to deserve this?
This was a cold, close, miss
I'm dying

I think I'm threw

I'm turning blue
I felt so young
thats why I'm singing this song
I hate not knowing
Why you're not showing


I'm dying, I'm dying, I'm dying, I'm dying (repeat)

Chorus x2

Don't die!

I wish I was famous

Boom chica Boom boom chica

'I wish we were famous'
'She wanna be famous hahaha'
I wish we were famous 
Everyone new our name
You'd her our song on the radio
and you'd know we weren't some silly game

All those bullys in our school 

Would look up to you!
'You mean us!'

I wish we were famous

A gazzilion albums sold
I wish I was famous
As rich as platinum and gold
When we walk down the re carpet
Our picture is in the paper
I wish we were famous
I wish we were famous
I wish we were famous...

I should be a song writer right? 

Pretty good for an 8 year old if you ask me..

I also have a book full of song lyrics I wrote for when I broke out of the group and became a solo artist so let me know if you'd want to see them

Emetophobia | CharlotteBehappy

So I have a phobia called 'emetophobia'. According to Wikipedia Emetophobia is an intense irrational fear or anxiety pertaining to vomiting.

So here's some stuff about it:

What's the difference between a fear and a phobia?

A fear is a normal emotion everyone experiences and it is easy to overcome. A phobia is an anxiety disorder and is uncontrollable and hard to overcome. Phobias cause distress and can stop people from living their everyday life. 

How does emetophobia affect someone?

Emetophobics can go to great lengths to avoid people who may be sick or to go to places where it's likely someone will be sick (eg. a bar, or a nightclub). Many emetophobics will endure nausea than be sick and it's likely they may be nauseous for hours whereas another person will be sick within twenty minutes of being nauseous. Those with emetophobia can also suffer from anxiety, depression, superstitious behaviour linked to OCD,  anorexia, fear of flying, agoraphobia and panic attacks. Emetophobics can fear children for fear of germs. They can also delay pregnancy just for fear of morning sickness. It's likely emetophobics will avoid travelling for fear of others being sick. Many emetophobics will have rituals when it comes to preparing and cooking food. They will check the freshness frequently (eg the expiration date), and wash the food a lot to avoid potential sickness - food poisoning. Eating out is also avoided.


It's quite common for emetophobia to lead to anorexia. In times where there are vomiting bugs, or viruses going around many emetophobics will starve themselves to avoid throwing up. Many emetophobics can have a fear of food (cibophobia) and then this fear can lead to anorexia nervosa. 

Do they fear vomiting themselves or other people vomiting?

Usually both. Habits of an emetophobic can include:
-Avoiding sick people
-Avoiding eating to much or getting full
-Compulsive cleaning - washing hands etc
-Compulsive expiration date checking
-Avoiding travel
-Not being able to sleep unless hungry
-Being nervous or anxious when going to public places

What causes emetophobia?

There is no specific cause but many causes can be from traumatic childhood experiences such as someone shouting at you for vomiting, or having a bad winter stomach bug. Some sufferers were abused as children - sexually or physically. Sometimes it can be due to lack of control as in situations involving someone being sick or being sick yourself, it is very hard to control. 

What are the treatments?

There are two main treatments:
Medication - anxiety medication to help to keep patients at ease. However many patients did not want to take the pills in fear of side effects (feeling nauseated).
Exposure - The video tape method shows those with the phobia someone vomiting. This method is the most effective but many patients do not want to take this method in fear of having a panic attack.

Emetophobia is the 6th or 7th most common phobia so next time you're watching a programme  and an actor or real person is sick, just think of the possible people who could possible be panicking or otherwise due to it. Bye :)